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Kiasma, Helsinki

Tired of chasing my own tail
She said that it seems I like to be hard to understand
Sure, I want to communicate (it all)
in some way
rather than in no way at all
Been listening to an endless product presentation
about UML and Prosa
all day, Surrounded by the way engineers think in their natural element
Choking
Waiting
Asking, demanding
Defining and analyzing - people rather than concepts
Trying to connect

NP: Don Huonot - Kärpänen I

Thu 2003-01-30 16:28 in diary No comments #link

Tässä

The radical changes in my mood are beginning to settle down. It's just sadness right now, dreaming oh-so-naïvely about a person whose sole existence is up to God.

The Bible seems a lot easier to study in English (The New International Version).

Today: Lindy hop lessons. We'll see.

Sun 2003-01-26 12:50 in diary 2 comments #link

and it's no sacrifice

19:11 <"anonymous"> miksi sä tuot sun uskovaisuutesi niin rajusti esille?
19:11 <pilpi> koska Raamattu sanoo?
19:12 <"anonymous"> öööh
19:12 <"anonymous"> okei
19:12 <pilpi> menee pelleilyks jos tekee pesäeron omien ja Raamatun ihanteiden välillä... tosin tässäkin on se mutta etten ole lukenut Raamattua kokonaisuudessaan.

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Tue 2003-01-21 19:29 in diary No comments #link

Kotona kaikuu

Dreaming: NP Zen Café - Kosketuksen Alla (PDF, in Finnish - the lyrics of the whole album, please browse to the appropriate song)

Why would I want to be a professional in some field, when I have the chance of being an actual person, interested in everything I say, not in everything my school or job says?

Tue 2003-01-21 15:15 in diary No comments #link

Dreamer's dream

My blog entry topics are getting less and less relevant.

I'm reading my own texts and feeling incredibly amused. How beautifully non-egocentric.. or whatever.

Starting to understand what it is to see people just as objects that interact with each other. I'm frightened by myself, in a 'big' way.

And, ewh, what about turning 'class interface' into a four-letter word? Eat that, you, you, you... linguists.

'Oh whatever' isn't exactly in a beautiful harmony with 'I really really really have a desparate need and will to care about you and to understand you'.

Now you're probably thinking I'm a total, umm, cynic.

I would like to point out that I'm, umh, not.

Mon 2003-01-20 15:24 in diary No comments #link

tired about it

I'm just so full of it all, I feel.

This world's too full of it all.

The camera's very nice.

I'm supposed to plan my future studies

and everything.

I'm starting to understand too much and therefore, also getting cynical. If you know a way to avoid this, I will welcome your thoughts.

Heck, I'll welcome your thoughts anyway.

Maybe I'll just ask the world map™ - my Bible.

Sat 2003-01-18 00:46 in diary No comments #link

The boy who made God cry

Tylsänä ranskantunnilla
Maailma tuntuu liian valmiilta.
Juostava jonnekin, eteenpäin.
rakastettava ja otettava
vastaan rakkautta.
Unohdettava.

I sent this and got a reply: "Beautiful words but do they mean anything?"
I felt exactly like the words that came out but I guess my "poems" these days are just words put after another. It's not like the poems aren't okay, but they're nothing but okay. The style is like one big cliché.

On Saturday I got the long-awaited digicam, a HP PhotoSmart 850, in my hands, and I tell you, it's just great. So far the only complaints are that it eats those 1850mAh batteries of mine in two days, with semi-heavy usage, and that while shooting those one-minute videos, the sound of zooming in and out ends up really loud on the final MPEG. The first mega-amateurish shots I took with is are in the gallery - photos from olaus' party.

This year has been miraculous so far... I've not been really depressed once.

Wed 2003-01-15 15:42 in diary 2 comments #link

Surfing At Night

Thinking about sleeping turned out to be next to impossible, so ended up from here to there and to Ruritania (especially check the very last sentence of this last link).

Fri 2003-01-10 03:10 in diary No comments #link

Super-smart!111

Surfing the site of a professor in my university, I found a site and laughed my ears off.

Been working on that Data Structures course quite intensively lately, sorry if I've been unsocial to the rest of the world. Anyway, I think we just might be going somewhere with it =).

Can't wait to get my hands on that digicam on Saturday, which, techically speaking, is tomorrow! Whee! Yesterday I bought a recharger and four rechargeable batteries for the thing. The salesman told me that the charger would stop charging the batteries once they were full, but the charger usage instructions told me it wouldn't (Hama Plug-in charger/Steckerladegerät UNI 2/4, 4 x 1850 mAh rechargeables incl., 19,90 EUR).

Also included was an enormously confusing equation on the basis of which the charging time was supposedly to be calculated. I decided asking all my friends who I thought knew something about physics (some of them proved to do so, too). Then I tried think with my own brain and gosh, it worked! (Later I asked my dad and he came to the same conclusion. And my dad is super-smart - even though he supports Micro$oft - so it must be correct).

NP: Maija Vilkkumaa - Tyyny

Fri 2003-01-10 02:19 in diary No comments #link

Reality check

Returned to Tampere after being in the more southern Finland since the beginning of December. Saw Jennitys and Jenni before weekend, and Eepa's been here since yesterday.

I was in that gospel happening, haaste 03 at the beginning of the week. My faith strengthened (though I have no way to explain that in practice) in a great deal.

I've been feeling strong after that long Christmas break. Waiting to go to Helsinki to retrieve my digicam as well as my new curtains (a late Christmas present from my mom, she had them made) next weekend.

Also next weekend, there is a party at olaus, featuring mostly people from #pullopeli, if I've understood correctly. I think I'm also going to take part in a youth philosophy happening, which durbuhuru told me about.

Getting a grip of my Data Structures and Algorithms course work, in cooperation with hidu.

Sun 2003-01-05 16:07 in diary No comments #link