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    we were out with Elina. The spring is here but evenings are still pretty cold. we rolled down hills and the roads were beautiful in the rain, reflecting the street lights.

Poof.

Sun 2003-03-30 22:21 in diary 2 comments #link

Supremity childlike

Now playing: .kraka - Lapsus

Memories from last spring, when I had again remembered a bit of what God's beauty really is... in a Quiet Action Easter happening in Ryttylä.

Elina just left. We've been spending most of our time during the last four weeks together. It seems a bit miraculous we've been capable of standing each other nearly 24/7.

It's spring. I'm trying to work and after that, I'll just be happy and start to study the Truth and a bit of the world in the way I want to.

Thu 2003-03-27 10:56 in diary No comments #link

Blink.

A thought that has passed my mind more than once:

What if all those people assume me as a blindfold idiot pretending to be innocent while jerking off in a closet?

I would want to be nothing more or less than what a person is.

Thought to understand the ugliest and the prettiest of this world.

Wed 2003-03-26 14:03 in diary No comments #link

simplistic ideals in a mind willing to make everything complex

I saw this movie. However, telling you the name of the movie might spoil you some of it, since this entry contains some elements from the movie which I thought were important. So I'm not going to, and instead I'm going to sleep - and expect tomorrow to change my world.

the beauty of simplicity
the beauty of not owning much
could it be the only right way to live?
could it not be?

- oli hauska tavata - ilo oli minun puolellani.
- ulvooko susi ikäväänsä?
- mitä olen velkaa? -jos näet minut suullani katuojassa, käännä selälle.

Having a bit of a rebellion. Aching to stop living with all this stuff around me, dreaming of a life without worries.. What an idealist I still am. It's funny, how Jesus makes the whole practice of life seem like dreaming - - - and yet, I've never felt so in touch with reality.

So how many times have you heard that already?

There's a war out there. In Iraq, to be specific. The leaders of the war have become public laughing stock. I took part in a demonstration for peace, but felt really lonely among those people, too.

"Cut the bullshit"

Elina's taught me a lot during the last five or so weeks. But she's not the first one who has. Lucky me, so forgetful in this world.

So if being an artist isn't serving God, what is it then?

Fri 2003-03-21 01:15 in diary No comments #link

quiet

It's as if I had left you.

Today's the election of the Finnish parliament.

I took this photo yesterday at the university of Tampere, we were eating there with Elina.

I'm too satisfied with my life. Gladly, a mountain of dishes to wash is waiting for me in the kitchen.

Sun 2003-03-16 16:28 in diary No comments #link

A lit bulb

I realized that this world actually doesn't encourage us to seek wisdom anywhere outside modern sciences. If you don't have the strength or the wits for thinking empirically, you will often feel humiliated. Most people seem to think that, there is no such thing as wisdom, in the world.

Proverbs 1:20

I had to be talking about the Bible, didn't I?

Wed 2003-03-12 19:05 in diary 2 comments #link

Bouncing

Location: Vantaa, Finland

A long night of talk behind us, I left Elina to sleep and took off to my mother's.
Fell asleep at seven thirty in the morning, in a bus.

Feeling fuzzy. Studying C++, feeling tired enough to concentrate on syntax details - I already know how to do all this in Java, so it feels a bit frustrating. Sent an application to Belgium a couple of days ago - in the summer I might go work there for a year, if they take me and if I take them ;).

The asphalt under the snow is gradually starting to show. Spring.

Sat 2003-03-08 15:35 in diary No comments #link

Stupid boy

Studying for an exam.
Translation: surfing the web and expecting the material to suck itself into my head.

A promising PHP image gallery.
A strange, but pretty search engine. Don't know what it's good for, though.

Thu 2003-03-06 12:18 in diary No comments #link

A poem, in Finnish

Kirjoitin tämmöisen runontapaisen.

Thu 2003-03-06 00:10 in diary 2 comments #link

Clouds

I feel hung over, though I've drunk nothing else than milk, water, and cola. Jennitys is having a party at her place, I'm about to go there. Elina left me a few hours ago, I told her I needed to be alone. And I did, but I never really decided what to do with my precious loneliness. Tried washing the dishes, though.

My flat is cold. Like, cold. Perhaps that's the fundamental reason for my feeling sick although I'd like to believe otherwise. My life is going as well as it ever could.

I might want to try doing dome good for a change.

Sat 2003-03-01 16:05 in diary No comments #link