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escapismological

I didn't want to have anything to do with the reality, so I expanded being in bed until ten minutes ago, although I wasn't really sleepy until 9.30 or ten or so.

Still have no idea what to wear tomorrow in the costume party. My imagination sucks when it comes to deciding what to wear or eat.

Listening to Coldplay. I'm typing this rather clothless, it's a bit foggy outside, I'm a bit cold.

Just... what?

Fri 2003-10-31 11:49 in diary No comments #link

koko elämä kahdella rivillä

Reading the blog mentioned in the previous entry, I did an IQ test of some sort and scored 5/7. Woo hoo. (=

Redid milk today. Some peeps said they liked it. And then one put it totally down. (=

Getting tired of the pilpi.net layout, too but not willing to bother to build it up again since of the enormous work it would probably be despite all the helper technologies I've used/built.

In addition to having done the first blood donation in my life, I was a test person in a usability test today. It was sorta fun, although during the test I seemed to get a bit stressed and I wasn't sure what the tester thought of me.

Thu 2003-10-30 19:44 in diary No comments #link

Matin perdue

Modern Life is Rubbish

Spotted a nice blog on the BlogSpot on my page.

Thu 2003-10-30 09:13 in diary No comments #link

I love you, but who am I

I just had a dream about the army. Since I got out of there, I've been having quite a few of those. Annoying. They're the closest thing to nightmares I almost ever have.

Bought an extension cord for my keyboard; now I can chat from the bed. Actually, it's not that good an idea, since it's rather difficult to find a good, comfortable position on the bed with the keyboard.

Yesterday morning, I took some quite nice fog photos but now, my camera has run out of batteries so I'll have to wait until tonight to unload and perhaps, publish some of the pics.

Today: Graphical UI Programming exercises, UI design course lectures, making a blood donation for the first time in my life. Also, I'm still to invent the most ingenious costume ever for the costume party on Saturday.

Playing: Sergio Mendes and Brasil '66 - Mais Que Nada

Thu 2003-10-30 09:09 in diary No comments #link

Run on

Just a quick entry.

Katri will be back from Austria on Saturday. There will also be a party at olaus' place. On Friday I might meet inna.

I've been working on an oversimplified chess game (Java and WinAPI/C++) on the UI programming course. Enjoying myself (=.

Busy busy busy.

Wed 2003-10-29 18:31 in diary No comments #link

red red juice

I just took a pie menus plugin into use in Mozilla. I'm not quite sure yet about how I feel about them, but the start is promising.

About yesterday's sad sad entry: I got to thinking it's rather sad that my studies dominate my life so much that I can actually get quite depressed if those aren't going well. Well there was more to my sadness last night, but that was one of the big reasons.

Oh yes. It might be nice to say something about the new edition of Salla's site she finished earlier this week.

Fri 2003-10-24 11:29 in diary No comments #link

worth shit

Snow came down today. It's officially winter. I've given up hope for any actual human caring in this world. It's dark and it's cold and you can consider that a metaphor if please. It's also only the beginning. I've promised to go to Helsinki in the weekend but I don't know whether I'll actually bother.

Oh, how melodramatic.

Thu 2003-10-23 19:04 in diary No comments #link

damp

It's Elina's birthday. We ate in a restaurant on Saturday and today some of the department's people are coming to celebrate with us in the evening.

I'm rather desperate about the software architecture course. I don't seem to possess the patience or something to grasp the way our plugin application is supposed to plug in to the GEF framework. The deadline of the documentation, of which our group has yet to write about ten pages, is on Monday.

Most other courses seem to progress relatively nicely, though.

Going to Helsinki on Saturday. Xahha's birthday-slash-house-warming-party and stuff.

A day or two ago I wasted time by modifying a photo with some smoke in it.

Wed 2003-10-22 17:07 in diary No comments #link

kuvailen pimeässä huoneessa digillä ja keskityn olemaan kadoksissa.

When you have nothing to say, post pictures.

A nearby parking hall entrance. Heavily edited, though.

A match on a wine bottle from which we drank last night, thanks to Ada and Alex (=.

A background image for a desktop. Edited from a university ceiling.

Sun 2003-10-19 19:54 in diary No comments #link

Puutarhuri myy ja opastaa taimia, mm. tomaatin ja kaalin.

Going around IRC tonight: Kielikukkasia

Sat 2003-10-18 01:06 in links No comments #link

you

After some lectures I headed home. On the User Interfaces course I found myself strangely active - in addition to breaking a desk by leaning on it, I actually joined the conversation going on in the lecture room. Usually I'm rather timid about saying anything on lectures.

Been IRCing quite a lot since then. Laughing at a collection of "jokes" and general... surfing. Trying to study Eclipse and feeling more and more desperate about it.

Boro dealt away a bunch of old hard drives to good homes today on our department IRC channel today, and I happily offered to foster one (=. They were too old for the computer sciences department, I guess. So tomorrow I'll have some more space for the SuSE on this machine.

Weekend...

Fri 2003-10-17 00:39 in diary No comments #link

Sataataas

hauskaa?

hauskaa.

The ground was frosty this morning. Or to be more precise, the grass and the leaves on it. In the afternoon, after the lectures, I took a nap of two or three hours.

Another supposedly pretty picture drawn. An application made in both Java and WinAPI/C++, capable of drawing a chess board on the screen.

Thu 2003-10-16 01:05 in diary No comments #link

Poem published

Subjective Substance published another poem of mine.

There's also a version of the poem in Finnish.

Sun 2003-10-12 19:32 in poetry No comments #link

when it rains, it rains.

It's pouring outside. It's been doing that for several days now, with breaks though. It's beautiful if I can stay inside. It's beautiful otherwise, too, but it might break my headphones. Yeees.

Reading Soile's journal (loving it) and Eclipse documentation.

Esko visited me today, it had been a while. I called Riitta, it had been even a longer while. I saw her on my previous Christmas holiday which was... last christmas, as it happens.

It might be refreshing to get excited with the Bible again.

Sun 2003-10-12 01:59 in diary No comments #link

Vielä joskus teen niin kuin huvittaa

Yesterday my faith got a it of a uplift in the form of a speech by Ilkka Puhakka (google). He's very lovely. He talked also about a certain part of the Sermon on the Mount:

  ²¹ "You have heard that it was said to those of old, "You shall not murder, and whoever murders will be in danger of the judgment.' ²²But I say to you that whoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment. And whoever says to his brother, "Raca!' shall be in danger of the council. But whoever says, "You fool!' shall be in danger of hell fire. ²³Therefore if you bring your gift to the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, ²⁴leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift. ²⁵Agree with your adversary quickly, while you are on the way with him, lest your adversary deliver you to the judge, the judge hand you over to the officer, and you be thrown into prison. (New King James Version of the Bible)

The main point, as I understood, was that in a rightful translation of the place in the original text, calling someone "you fool" would be to call him/her "weightless"; someone who needs not to be taken into consideration. In the eyes of our Lord even the ones with virtually no value to people are precious. So if hell fire seems a harsh sentence for calling someone a fool, the explanation might be here - telling someone s/he is not worth caring for is a different thing.

Anyway, that's just my interpretation of Puhakka's speech and he did talk about quite a few other things, as well.

The last few days I've been reading John Fiske's Introduction to Communication Studies - well the edition in Finnish, anyway. It's relatively interesting, even. Now planning to study Eclipse.

Sat 2003-10-11 15:21 in diary No comments #link

Jesus Blood

Woo hoo. I finally found out what those screenfuls of text in the end of each Dharma and Greg episode are. They're called vanity cards. (That's today's episode, BTW).

I feel like too many of even the "religious people" I know are, in the end, lost souls. Or perhaps it's just me.

I lit a candle, it's been long since.

NP. Delirious - Jesus Blood

Thu 2003-10-09 20:36 in diary No comments #link

_

Listening to Radiohead and it makes me feel like I can't and don't want to be bothered to do anything.

The school diner served kebab pizza which was all dry so I had to drink a lot with it. (Didn't taste that good, either.)

I wouldn't want to whine here so I won't.

Blah. What an incredibly retarded entry.

Thu 2003-10-09 13:08 in diary No comments #link

I don't make much difference

I've been going to two places with my moods today. The other one is a dark place, the other one is tolerable, though completely unproductive.

I sent a package, which contained a book, to Austria today. I also sent a bill to the restaurant company I've been working for a bit.

I went to Hankku's place for a couple of hours or something. We talked.

Despite its lyrics, I like the new avoliitto song.

Somehow I've been waiting for a rather long time for the snow to come. I don't want it to come, but I have this mental thing about things waiting to happen. They annoy me.

It's dark everywhere. Right now it's wet, too. Not in my flat, though. Well, you know.

Tue 2003-10-07 23:27 in diary No comments #link

I can resist everything except temptation -Oscar Wilde

On Saturday morning, we went to a flea market in Myyrmäki.

When I got to Helsinki centrum, we passed by aconstruction site, and they had this concrete pole, which I thought was beautiful.

In the actual games museum show there was this small room that played tunes when I walked on the neon squares on the floor.

I also have a photo of a somewhat original version of ... now I forgot the name. That first space shooting game, you know. Anyway, that photo was even worse than these ones, so I left it out.

Messy.

Sun 2003-10-05 15:53 in diary No comments #link

jos mä rakastan sun bemarii

I wonder if the world will ever seem simpler or less chaotic² to me.

"What have I done to deserve this" - does that seem like a frustraded or an overwhelmingly happy sentence to you?

I'm in Töölö, Helsinki. Yesterday we went round in the centre with Juuso, Jenni and hydron. I might upload here a photo or two from the video games museum we were to yesterday.

Sun 2003-10-05 13:35 in diary No comments #link

ruttu

It's been a day of feeling superior, then later inferior. It's been a day of sensing supernaturalities and later, rebelling against Father. It's been a day of sickness and respect, and a day of heavy rain coming down from the sky.

Reading blogs, for once. Depressing.

Thu 2003-10-02 18:19 in diary No comments #link

point du jour

Just saw Michael Moore's documentary film Big One. I just love his style. Makes me want to learn about society well enough to be the Michael Moore of Finland.

I'm going to regret saying that, aren't I? (=. Actually, we already have a Michael Moore of Finland, of sorts - Hannu Karpo (melody: Eminem's Stan. Oh, that's hilarious! =). He isn't quite as charming, though, although his style is very characteristic, as well.

Lots has happened after the previous entry for today. I spent 4 lessons (4 x 45 minutes, that is) in journalism (or whatever the official name is) lectures, and then met dad and some of his work mates. They were visiting Tampere for some tech fair in Pirkkahalli.

At seven we went to this "Music Inn" (Musiikin Majatalo) Christian gathering, hosted by the lovely Kaisa and Iisakki. We sung songs and... such. Everyone was overwhelmingly friendly and even I couldn't help enjoying myself although I was very tired and very unsocial.

I just took another look at the PGUI course work requisites, and for once, I think I'm actually going to enjoy building that app. I might as well start relatively soon... hmm...

Wed 2003-10-01 23:47 in diary No comments #link

spoon

It's frightening, when searching for something with google, the first hit is your own site.

This morning I stayed awake the entire first lecture. It was quite interesting, even. It looks like I'm going to code the PGUI course work in Java and in WinAPI (C++).

Again it seems that outside the actual concious thoughts I would have so much to talk about, but I can't, since I can't somehow... remember it all. I've been seeing a lot of dreams lately.

Wed 2003-10-01 11:05 in diary No comments #link

No worries?

As I arrived to school just now, there was a beautiful fog everywhere. At home, I have this plant in the kitchen, which has finally started to bloom. All this after I happened to borrow my camera to Juuso for a couple of days, so I don't have a chance to take those photos.

I have my little radio with me. A while ago they played a version of the song Hakuna matata, and most of the lyrics seemed to make no sense to me.

The previous entry was left a bit unfinished. I can't remember what it was supposed to contain, though.

The computer sciences department Linux class machines have this XFCE windowing environment, which is nice, though most applications can supposedly only be run via a terminal window. Sub-pixel anti-aliasing is just beautiful.

PGUI lectures start in nine minutes.

Wed 2003-10-01 08:09 in diary No comments #link