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kanakastike.

Leena, isin vaimo tekee tätä aika usein. Oon aina tykänny, makeahko, joten pyysin vihdoin reseptin.

Ainekset: 1rkl fariinisokeri, korkillinen (laitoin 1,5) balsamiviinietikka (tai omenaviinietikka), purkillinen ruokacremeä. sipulia ja mahdollisesti valkosipulia maun mukaan. Lisäkkeeksi esim. pastaa. Salaatti on varmaan kans ihan hyvä idea (=.

Paista sipulit ja valkosipulit. Lisää fariinisokeri. Kun sokeri sulanut hyvin, lisää etikka, sekoita. Lisää liha, kypsennä hyvinkin kypsäksi.
Lisää creme. Hauduta puoli tuntia tms. miedolla lämmöllä. Lihana voi käyttää esim. mandariini- tai hunajamarinoitua kanaa/broileria. Voi lisätä maun vaihtelemiseksi mietoa sinappia, ketsuppia tai tomaattipureeta. Maustaa voi merisuolalla (1 kide) ja mustapippurilla tai muulla pippurilla.

Syötiin, oli hyvää, vaikka maustoin aika miedosti ja piti lisätä pippuria. Pieneksi lohkottu appelsiini oli lisäkkeenä, sopi hyvin mukaan.

Fri 2005-02-25 23:09 in nettis No comments #link

orthodox

Isä Ambrosius

Varsin erilaista kristillistä näkemystä minulle Ryttylässä, Kansanlähetyksen piirissä opetettuun nähden. Itse en osaa ottaa kantaa vielä, mutta sinänsä varsin mielenkiintoinen kirjoitus. Kaikki, mitä minulla on, on Kristus.

Löysin tämän nettiksen jopa kartalta. Hih.

HiukanKO näkyy että oon hiihtolomalla tän nettiksen päivitystahdista =P.

Wed 2005-02-23 18:30 in links 1 comment #link

Ping-O-Matic

Testing Ping-O-Matic and some strange version of NP_PingPong.

Today: Been trying to get all my todo lists into some kind of an order. So far, it hasn't been much of a success. Today, going to visit a Bible group hankku's been a member of for quite some time. I've gotten the impression Hankku thinks it'll all be good.

Optimistic about life at the moment though A VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD IS TELLING ME IT'S ALL WRONGGGG!!! Several voices, really.

=D.

Go figure about all this.

(addition: didn't manage to get that version of NP_PingPong working ... I think. I'm not sure if my blog was supposed to appear in any of those lists just like that. All I got is an XML error as a result of posting this, but when I looked at the source something sensible seemed to have happened anyway. ['Slow down cowboy'])

Wed 2005-02-23 18:00 in diary 1 comment #link

Naulalla

Trying to learn to use GIMP 2.2 better. It's one queer app.

Creative promised to send me a MuVo NX FM 512MB - MP3 player because the Rhomba 256 MB I had sucked so much I didn't want a new one (during the first year of usage) - every individual device seems to be broken in some way. My package is on it's way from Dublin it seems.

Chatting with Hankku on IRC. I should probably wash her dishes so that her flatmates wouldn't hate me for living here for the entire week ;).

Tue 2005-02-22 13:43 in diary No comments #link

sisältää fenyylialaniin lähteen

Join tänä aauna Valion rasvatonta Puolukkajogurttia.

Ennen välttelin aspartaamia. Valion ravitsemus -infosivu.

google: aspartaami
google: phenylalanine

EU:n direktiivi (PDF), "on sweeteners and foodstuffs", jossa määrätään, mm. että aspartaamia sisältävissä tuotteissa on luettava "sisältää fenyylialaniin lähteen" ("contains a source of phenylalanine"). Kaikkee jänskää.

Hmm, tuotinpas EU:n palvelimilla Internal Server Errorin, vahingossa (=. Näköjään käyttävät Javaa.

Liikaa turhaa tietoa?

Tue 2005-02-22 12:02 in links 1 comment #link

kuolen pian

Location: University of Tampere computer class 10.

Met Iikku and Paavo and Jenni and Jussi and Hankku. I've been introducing Joose Keskitalo's music to all og them today, I just realized. I'd like to have something new to experiment with, perhaps learn to Mambo (the CMS). That thought feels a bit boring too, though.

Right now I feel life is more interesting and exciting than I can really argue based on any facts I can remember. Based on what I remember, this is going to be one rather dull week, except for some people-filled moments. Tomorrow I'll see Elina, on Friday it's kräsä (link in Finnish) time.

If I just could get myself to read more of the Bible. Perhaps the new one-column New Testament will help, being easier to read. It has helped a bit already.

Mon 2005-02-21 17:16 in diary No comments #link

FeedBurner

Trying out FeedBurner.

Not convinced yet, but it does look kinda promising. I guess I could do all that by myself? Also seems a bit slow and I'm too lazy to play around with something that's just nice and geeky, but ultimately not useful, not really.

Sun 2005-02-20 22:09 in links No comments #link

deadly my dear

Location: Vantaa.

3K evening tonight in Kaisaniemi, near Helsinki centrum. Joose Keskitalo & Joose Pitkänen. The former had a very impressive musical performance going on the stage. I felt so healed by the atmosphere (some call Jesus) that I bought the record. Also otherwise the evening was great, the speeches seemed right and we prayed. Now listening to that CD for the first time. I'm thinking the lyrics are so good and the message is clear - they could be published as just poetry. Perhaps I'll write Joose - I happened to hear his e-mail address yesterday.

Have been guided strongly by my Lord today (for a couple of days really). Or perhaps I've just trusted more and noticed how much He guides me all the time. Haven't been that much more in control I guess over my life than usual but I've had a chance to pray a bit more than usual - usually I don't know how I'm supposed to pray more than rather short prayers ... Jesus is getting me there?

I feel that question mark is an honest one. Yes, I'm trusting that Jesus is getting me there, if anyone, though.

Been thinking (once again) of making a list of all the people I've ever met (and upgrading it as I come across more of them). Name, if I know one. Anything to identify the person. Impressions of the person. Contact info, if available. It would be good to have better belletrist (sorry I don't know a "real English" word for that) capabilities in order to really describe people. I have a really lousy memory when it comes to people's names so this might help.

Tonight I grasped something of my own (dis-)honesty. Consciously I usually consider myself a rather open person (with several exceptions). But then, I often feel that in order to really, honestly tell something about what I am or think, I would require a long dialog and lots of time.

Sat 2005-02-19 23:59 in diary No comments #link

Spring warmth

Playing with Emil, searching lost library books, which supposedly are somewhere in my dad's flat. I have no idea though, I've went through most of the imaginable places so I guess it's time to move on to the unimaginable.

Yesterday came to Helsinki from Ryttylä. Winter holiday. Spent couple of hours in town with Minna and Suvi (and for some time with Sari, too). Went to two Christian bookshops. I bought two Nina Åström (Astrom) CDs, a one-column new testament (easier to read than the usual two-column) and a children's book about the ten commandments. After having gotten stuff bought, we went for a cup of hot chocolate.

Later when I got home Emil went to play in the bath tub, I kept company. Later I stuffed myself into his little cardboard playhouse - somehow I feel a funny little sense of pride when I manage to get myself into places big people aren't usually supposed to fit into. At about 10-11 in the evening we read some books, and Emil fell asleep listening to me reading a children's bible to him.

Today we've been playing Digger (by Windmill software, 1983, via an emulator) and Alley Cat (by IBM/Synsoft, 1984) - two PC games from an era when something like SVGA (for instance) was unheard of. Emil likes them. It's funny how these days they seem to be incabable of making great simple games. Or I don't know, I don't play computer games that much.

It's nice to be capable of actually deciding to be with Emil, having not that much other things to do.

Sat 2005-02-19 12:44 in diary 2 comments #link

Gmail accounts available

I've got 50 spare Gmail invitations, so if you want one, tell me.

Wed 2005-02-16 20:29 in diary 1 comment #link

Saippua

Mun elämässä on aina ollut vettä. Alusta asti. Ehkä minä synnyinkin vedestä, ehkä elin siinä ennen syntymääni tai ennen sitä, kun joku loi evoluutioteorian. Muistan melkein kaikki hetket. Ainakin ne, joissa minun mielestä on jotakin, minkä takia niiden olisi pitänyt unohtua. Muistan sen, miten muovinen laiva kiersi ammeessa ympäri ja ympäri, ankka oli oppinut imitoimaan, mutta minä pidin aina kättäni sen nokan edessä, ettei äiti kuulisi miten se höpötteli. Muistan, miten kylpyhuoneessa kaikui, siellä tosiaan kaikui niin kuin luolastossa.

Muistan senkin, kun satoi. Merkityksellisiä, suuria pisaroita, jotka valuivat bussipysäkin pleksiseiniä ja mun poskia pitkin. Muistan miten todellisilta punaiset hiukset näyttivät märkinä, muistan miten mun sydän yritti hajottaa rintalastan, tyttö nousi väärään bussiin ja ajoi pois, en oikein tiedä minne, en tullut katsoneeksi auton numeroa.

Muistan Keiteleen ja juhannusyön ja sen, että ukko oli juonut kaikki mun kaljat. Vesi oli mustaa, pelkkää valhetta pohjaan asti. Muistan miten seisoin laiturilla ja tuijotin järveen ja mietin, kannattaisiko sitä naarata ja mietin sitäkin, että kun sillä oli jo aika harmaat hiukset, niin ehkä ne jotenkin samenisivat vielä edelleen siellä alhaalla.

Mut sitten eilisestä en muista mitään. Muuta kun sen, että pesin käsiäni, kerta toisensa jälkeen ja kirosin Kantia, kun se ei jättänyt jälkeensä saippuaa vaan kasan vaikealukuista moraalista pohdintaa. Kant ei varmaan ollut nähnytkään vettä, ehkä se ei koskaan ollut rakastunut, ehkä sille ei kukaan kertonut, miten akvaariossa voi hengittää. Ja mua otti päähän oikeestaan koko elämä ja Kant ja se, että mulla vaan oli edelleen jano, vaikka olin imenyt tyhjiin kaikki ne hetket, joita mulle oli annettu.

 

Sat 2005-02-12 23:41 in runot No comments #link

that yellow spark in the dark

Reached hankku's place for the weekend. It's a funny feeling to not really have a home. I usually don't spend weekends where I study (the Finnish Lutheran Mission school), it's a bit complicated since they arrange all kinds of happenings there on weekends. So it's not really a home but a room in which I live on weekdays. Now I feel like I'm at home when I got to Hankku's place, probably since this place looks like a home, which my school doesn't, though I do like it there, too.

Since Autumn I've gathered lots of questions about faith and the doctrine I'm being taught about: now it's starting to look like I might be starting to get some coherent kind of a set of questions to present to some theologian in our school. All this is in order to try to (to some degree) understand what the world view I'm trying to adopt - God's, is about, and what living faith into practice would be like.

Fri 2005-02-11 22:06 in diary No comments #link

shine

Since yesterday, the light has been somehow different. Gentler yet stronger? It feels like spring is coming. I love it.

Tue 2005-02-08 15:41 in diary No comments #link

tuskailut tyyliin ryde

Ryttylässä joskus tämän lukuvuoden aikana kirjoitettua:

Täällä tuntuu, että sillä, mitä teen, on enemmän väliä muille ihmisille. Se on luultavasti vain tunne, sillä suurimman osan aikaa en tee mitään, mistä varsinaisesti olisi hyötyä paljon kenellekään, paitsi itselleni.

Ongelmaksi muodostuu oman identiteetin löytäminen uskovien yhteisössä. Hetken aikaa, kun päädyn edelleen katsomaan ulkopuolelta, ajattelen muita uskovina ja itseäni siis ... ei-uskovana. Mutta kun tajuan, että todella välitän Jeesuksesta henkilökohtaisesti, tuleekin ongelmaksi: mitkä ovat kategoriat, missä vastakkainasettelu? Ne häviävät, olen vain uskova yksilö muiden uskovien yksilöiden joukossa (helpottavaa.), minun uskoni vain ilmenee tehden vähemmän oletuksia opista - se, mikä pohjimmiltaan yhdistää, on usko kristukseen, mutta oppi on laaja ja koskee suurta osaa ellei kaikkea siitä, mitä elämässä teen. Tosin opistakin suuresta osasta on helppo olla samaa mieltä. Ja mitä sitten? Uskon, mutta uskoni on ikäänkuin vielä syntymässä, pysähdyksissä, hiljaa, katsoen totuutta, mutta välittämättä siitä, että siinä on kaikki. Myöntäen: tämä on se tie jota haluan mennä (ikäänkuin vielä myöntäen tai väittäen, että kyse on subjektiivisesta totuudesta, että tämä olisi vain yksi teistä).

Sun 2005-02-06 15:51 in nettis No comments #link

sunday sin

There's still something wonderfully idiotic about my faith in Jesus, something that always manages to make it all seem artificial. I no longer have many intellectual arguments against Christianity that would seem relevant - however, just trusting seems awfully difficult at times - usually when I'm at either of my parents' homes. Frustration creates more distrust and after not trusting for a while I seem to stop caring about anything much. Then I just sit here, bored, and wonder what the heck I'm supposed to do with this life: although just a moment ago I enjoyed greatly being able to study and getting chances to care about different people, now it all seems not worth it (though I know it must be).

Help me God, for whatever I am, I've no strength to fulfil your standards.

Even the fact that they say that I'm supposed to be weak before God can actually use me annoys me.

Sun 2005-02-06 15:12 in diary No comments #link

the dream of a boy

The magazines tell stories about men who've lived their lives serving some gods of this world: money, work, reputation or something. Although calling the values of this world false gods is a typical Chritstian way of expression, I'm beginning to like it: in the long run, when you put the older men next to each other and look at what they've accomplished in life, it would seem that it's somehow discernible who and what they've served.

For me, the difficulty still seems to be defining my dream: though my life, what I do, is guided by God, my values and some sort of an intuition of where I'd like to go, so far there's no single dream which I could put into words - partly, it's because I like to keep free of restricting myself needlessly. Currently I'm fascinated by the idea of studying more philosophy, teaching my mind to work with concepts and ideas more flexibly. (I remember telling Elina a year or two back that I feel I'm through with philosophy. That intuition seems to be beginning to pass.)

My own subjectiveness is however so overwhelming that whatever happens, I'll just walk in prayer and let God show me where to go.

(The inspiration for this posting was the newest Helsingin Sanomat Kuukausiliite)

Sat 2005-02-05 12:44 in diary No comments #link