This is evening for me, and perhaps I would like to not be alone, since this is evening for me, and someone at aukea whispered words about gloomy pubs in my ear. So now I would like to be in a gloomy pub but instead, I'm in Vantaa, and after going through the quickest flu in my life (one day it lasted, wonder if it's coming back?) I'm thinking about taking part in a party or two today and tonight. But right now I'm not sure I wish to be this lonely, for lonely I am.

Actually, I don't really feel that lonely, I just thought that would be a nice way to end that sentence. Things that are in my mind, things that have surely been grieved by many before (and after) me. Why don't I long for my Lord Jesus as much as they do, why do I long for the life I've lived before I met Him and actually, I can't really see whether that life has changed that much or not after that - partially because usually it's rather troublesome to see the choices you didn't make.

Why am I awake this early on a Saturday morning when I'm usually not awake this early on weekdays? Well, let me tell you. I left my cell phone in the bus which I used to get to Vantaa yesterday. They told me that the bus was going back to Tampere today at 6:10, so I got up and went to the bus stop. At about half past six the bus was at the Martinlaakso stop and the driver gave me my cell phone back. After that, as if not realizing that I'm supposed to be sick, I spent more than half an hour taking photos, lying on the cold ground. That picture, lonely, is a result of that trip.

Such long sentences I can't be bothered to break and probably some typos, as well. That's me, alright.

December 13, 2003 08:30 in diary

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